reclaiming me

Yesterday was a day of rest, with primary back stretch thrown in for good measure before bed.

Today:

• OIP/HF/El
• TWO

Is it normal for Total Workout to seem so much harder to me? I think my frame of mind might have had a lot to do with that, though -- I was full-on cranky up until T-Tapp Twist. Then, I like that move -- plus it seems to "release" something in me, and I started to feel better. But, I'm telling you, crankiness can put a damper on your workout!

Mood things: I'm acting vaguely PMSy, even though I'm on my cycle right now. My hips are a full inch bigger than they were. Forty-fucking-three inches, people. I can look at myself in clothing all day long and know that it's because I'm developing a T-Tapp booty (as if I needed help?), but still, it's frustrating. Repeat to self: I build muscle. Then I drop fat. This is how MY body works. I build muscle. Then I drop fat. This is how MY body works. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Yeah, I’d still like to see some inch loss. Is that too much to ask? I toyed with the idea of a second boot camp (since my first one was only 4 days, after all), but decided I’ll wait and let 4 weeks pass before doing it again. And next time, it’ll be a 7-10 day one, at least. Until then, less will have to be more, and I’ll stick with doing TWO only every other day.

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What a way to start the morning. I’ve been accused of retouching my own photos.

Sorry, but the only change I see is that the newer photos are retouched. Something totally unnatural abouth them, those edges for instance.
Also, with a tight top to hide all that’s under it, you can hardly call it a change.
Still good luck to you.

Yeah, um…whatever. And the point of that would be…what?

My only guess about the odd jagged edges on the new photos (with the white sheet behind me) is that I took a 500×500 photo and have it displayed as 400×400. Perhaps if I remove that bit o’ code…

Anyway, for the record, I don’t retouch photos. I don’t fudge my measurements. What in the world good would that do me? If you’d take any time at all to see my *real* blog (oh, right, the one I’ve been neglecting), you’d see that I place a supreme value on recognizing life as it is, not as I’d like it to be. My body is what my body is — and I’m taking photos so *I* can know what progress I’m making, not so I can brag to other people. I posted on the boards as a means of offering encouragement to those who, like me, aren’t seeing inch loss, so that they’d know that change happens even without it.

Harrumph. On with my day.

Added: I removed the resizing code, and whadya know? Smooth lines. Pffffffft.

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I’ve been SO not motivated. Maya’s sick, and has been home two days already this week (we see the doctor this afternoon). Mike’s got the same crud. I saw the doctor Monday, and am finally on abx, so the infection seems to be dropping. Add to that, I had a serious bout of PMS cravings (what’s with this?) so had more than just a smidge of ice cream. And I’m not talking the cheapie low-fat variety. We’re talking super-premium all the fat, all the sugar ice cream.

Point is, I’ve gotten no exercise whatsoever in the past three days. Right now, the kiddo is napping, and I’m trying to pry myself away from the computer for even 1/2 an hour to work out. BUT…I just called T-Tapp and learned that the purchase I made last Sunday — the one that was supposed to ship out on Monday and arrive here no later than Friday? Yeah, right. It’s slated (by UPS) to get here Monday. By then, I’ll be in Colorado. I’m having it re-routed to there, and hoping that between now and then, I can just keep from eating the entire house.

What’s up with the cravings and hunger, anyway?

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I feel wonderful. Really, I do — my posture has improved dramatically over the past 1-1/2 weeks (wow, is that it?), and I just look better than I did a short time ago, enough so that even my husband has commented on it.

So, I grabbed the tape measure this morning. I mean, my belly feels so flat. I can feel my hipbones nicely. And you know what? Not only does the tape measure not show loss, it shows some slight gain. It could be PMS. It could be the enormo dinner we enjoyed at Carrabbas last night (yum!).

Or, it could just be that my shape is changing in ways that don’t show up in the metrics. I remembered seeing this thread on the T-Tapp boards:

catzrule wrote:

I’m one of those people who is a LTL, short-torso/LL who hasn’t lost inches yet, BUT my pics tell a different story.

For those in the same boat or those who ONLY measure and are getting discouraged, try pictures.

I have my whole journey since April of last year documented. I wear the SAME size, SAME clothes as last year, but look how my shape has changed.

T-Tapp works!

See her pictures here. Then here. Then here. Pretty impressive, no? I was warned (when I posted my photos) that I might be one of these who saw changes in ways other than weight/inches loss. I doubted it then, but now I’m realizing that might be true.

Just keep tapping, just keep tapping. As her sig line says, Dieting makes you look good in clothes, exercise makes ya look good nekkid! This is about health, not about being skinny, damnit.

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Fit & Fabulous came with a coupon to be mailed in for a one-time 30% discount off my next T-Tapp purchase. Being a good girl, I mailed it right after getting the book.

After that, of course, I learned that I could have *faxed* the coupon to the T-Tapp offices. FAXED. As in, they’d have received it immediately. Grumble. A week later, the office still hasn’t gotten my coupon, and damnit, I want to go ahead and order the Total System.

I ended up doing one set of OIP/HF/OIP last night, before realizing that attempting that with the 2-year-old on hand was a recipe for disaster (for me - legs getting pushed all over) and hurt feelings (Maya crumpled into a wailing heap when I pushed her away). Since I hadn’t been feeling so hot physically anyway, I let it go with that.

I also indulged myself with some pizza and ice cream. Hello, PMS, anyone?

No workout *yet* today. Even though I’m coughing, I WILL get some workout in today…I just need it. I may need to pay the extra $4 to leave Maya in daycare an hour later, purely so I can work out. Whatever it takes, right? I’ll be really glad when a 15 minute workout honestly only takes me 15 minutes!

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