09Apr08

OIP/HF done — then baby woke.

BWO+ done.

I can really see now where doing HD separately will help me. My form sucks big time, so doing them at half-speed will really help a ton.

Also — I forgot to mention, but I’ve added a change to my diet — I’m off dairy. This isn’t for me, but for Gavin, since he seems to have silent reflux (complete with heartburn pain, poor kid), and that’s the first step in fixing it. As a result, though, I’m likely to eat more cleanly. It would seem that most of the questionable-value food I eat has dairy in it.

But still, wah. I want cheese. At least I like soy milk enough to have it with my coffee!

One more note: Mike noted this morning that I look VERY different from even a week ago. I can see it in the mirror, but still, it’s gratifying to have someone else notice. I WILL get back my hot bod, damnit. And then? I’ll go to Safety Harbor and eat chocolate and drink wine. SO THERE.

Off to shower while I can!

Dragging myself, kicking and screaming.

The motivation still isn’t there, but if I wait for it to return, I might find myself another inch or two in the hips bigger before it does. So, I joined SparkPeople for tracking what I eat (and my water intake) and we’re moving on. My (in my head, at least) schedule for the next week or two is this: 2-3x TWO or other full body workout per week, 3-4x cardio per week. Right now, I’m aiming for MWF cardio and TTh TWO — with anything on the weekends being a bonus (hiking!).

I got a copy of Ladybug!

So, having a new workout, and feeling in the throes of some harsh PMSiness (yes, that’s a word. I just used it, so it must be a word.), I decided to give not just Ladybug workout, but the COMBO a try.

Oh, I like. I felt/looked like a bumbling idiot through a good part of it, and I clearly need to sit back and watch the whole thing again before I actually do the workout next time. At least I watched the form tips this go ’round, so I wasn’t completely unprepared.

The after-feeling of Ladybug is different. Where I felt almost hyper (the hiking high) after TWO, I feel more Zen and all-is-well-in-my-world afterward. That’s pretty impressive, when you consider that I was working myself into a teary mess this morning.

Over all, even though I’m still looking at 43.5-44″ hips, and a pile of clothing I purchased in December (with the idea that by now, they’d be loose) that don’t fit, I still feel good. Good is…well, good.

Oh, and I’ve decided that I will treat myself to some sort of shorts/top workout getup for my contest photos. I don’t really want to pose in swimwear, but something that shows more skin than yoga pants would probably be good. I want to be a grand prize winner, damn it — and go to the Safety Harbor retreat for free. Maybe I’ve gained all this CRAP in my hips just to be more impressive later, right? I can dream.

Lacking motivation.

Finding my hip measurement to still be in the 43.5-44″ range, I’m just not feeling motivated. I’m still getting some body movement in, but it hasn’t been T-Tapp.

Don’t get me wrong. T-Tapp isn’t going anywhere. I still fully plan to participate in the 60-day challenge, even! (May 12 — July 10)

So, catching up on my workouts:

Friday
Nothing. Nada. Not even PBS.

Saturday
5-ish mile bike ride with the family, including the *excitement* of four flat tires total, both on my bike and both on the child trailer. *grumble* It felt great, but I’d forgotten that my seat kind of sucks…meaning that my sit bones are still tender today.

Sunday
2-mile walk with kid in jog stroller, walking SATI-style as much as possible. This was broken up into: 1 mile out, stand killing time at the park as the 2-1/2 year old energizer bunny runs around like a mad-woman, 1 mile back.

Sunday afternoon, I did about 75-80% of the work of reorganizing the garage so that our 2-car garage can actually hold 2 vehicles. Let’s just say that my shoulders were SORE as heck this morning, but that I was anal-retentive about good posture, so no injuries occurred.

Sunday night was “Hit the Couch: PMS edition.” There was chocolate involved. (Staying off dairy? Who, me?) Oh, and sorbet. And Tivo’d Grey’s Anatomy, followed by falling asleep with the Discovery Health Channel (aka, the unnecessary gore, blood, and guts channel) on in the background. I love DHC. Even when I was pregnant, I watched the birthing shows about everything that went wrong, fully confident that it would *never* happen to me. I digress…

Today
So far, I’ve done a single set of Hoe Downs (each side twice) to compensate for the rather sizeable load of rice I consumed with dinner. Hey, at least the rest of dinner was healthful: chicken breast and the most colorful spinach salad I think I’ve ever made. Let’s see…strawberries, grapefruit, chopped granny smith apple, pistachios, golden raisins, and a buttload of spinach. Maya and I sang as I prepared it…

Musings on why I might be gaining, not losing.

Kirsten suggested I re-read this thread and consider these ideas as possibilities while she looks over my workout/measurement history. Rather than type out an email, I think I’ll put my responses online, here.

Have you ever asked yourself Why am I not losing?

Boy, is this a loaded question that does not have a simple answer. There are multiple factors that play a role in our body’s ability to function. Sleep, nutrition, hormones, exercise, water intake, stress, disease.

It is important to consider that the body is constantly in motion seeking to preserve balance wherever it can.

SLEEP

We all know that sleep is important. Experts say that 8 hours are ideal — some require more and some require less. Quality sleep with no interruptions is ideal but for moms with small children — they find this to be very challenging. During sleep, the cells are busy — repairing, rebuilding and carrying out the work that it doesn’t have time for during the day when we are awake.

Even though I’m the mom of a 2-1/2 year old, my sleep doesn’t suffer any more, except on rare occasions. I usually get at least 7-8 hours per night. From personal experience, I tend to be okay as long as I get at least six hours.

NUTRITION

We all know the importance of proper nutrition but understanding what your body specifically needs and how much can be a daunting task. Too many calories? Not enough calories? More protein? Less Carbohydrates? It’s enough to make your head swim. It is helpful to become your own “advocate” and research many different ways of eating (WOE) so that you can determine which plan suits your needs. Most experts agree that adding more fruits and vegetables, eating lean proteins and complex carbohydrates is appropriate. They also agree that reducing caffeine, excess sugar, and eliminating artificial sweeteners, artificial flavors/preservatives, fast foods and processed foods is a great first step on the path to wellness. I highly recommend tracking your food intake for one week so that you can objectively analyze your eating over several days. Read those food labels.

One final item to mull over - -how many years of poor eating habits, artificial sweeteners and/ or preservatives, yo-yo dieting, diet pills etc. do you need to recover from?

This one is always an issue. Always. While I don’t have a “diet” mentality, I definitely eat better at some times than at others. Since I’ve traveled twice to Colorado in recent weeks, that means more diet sodas and more processed food (junk on the road). Funny, I don’t drink many diet sodas while at home, but man…put me on a road trip, and WHAM.

I really rail against the idea of counting calories, but if it becomes necessary, I will. SIGH. I’m much happier when I’m simply eating the right foods — because then I don’t usually have to worry about “how much” of them I eat.

My current hypothesis re: dairy could play into this. Perhaps I have enough German lineage that my return to dairy (after a few weeks off milk) has triggered a puffiness/swelling in me? I can certainly say that my bust seems bigger, even within the past week, so maybe that’s it. Cutting casein will mean, by definition, cutting many processed foods, so it will be interesting to see what happens over my two-week elimination.

I’m drinking coffee these days, and I’m not ready to quit that.

Hormones

This could be an issue, but it’s hard to say. Recent change: I went back off the birth control pill due to some unpleasant side effects (namely, complete loss of libido, oops). I’m 25 days into my first “off” cycle, but my chart seems to say that my hormonal levels are pretty darned stable. Interestingly enough, I’ve noticed that the morning following days I take entirely “off” from exercise, my temp is roughly 3/10 of a degree lower.

Thyroid: Have had testing done before, told all (including TSH, T3) were normal. Granted, that was last summer, so things could have changed. Since my energy levels are fine (they were horribly low pre-T-Tapp), I don’t believe this is the problem.

Adrenal: Nine years ago, I spent every weekend at Skydive Houston in beautiful, “scenic” Waller, Texas — and in some ways, I’ve wondered if my adrenal gland has been off since then. Stopping regular jumping did correspond with my first major depression. I’m still on a very low dose of Effexor (37.5mg/day), and I notice that when I’m too late with a dose, I get what I’ve thought of as the cortisol effect — it’s like the fight/flight feeling, minus the urgency — an underlying sense of anxiety. T-Tapp has helped level that out, and I’m close to going every other day with meds.

Exercise

See my calendar, link to the side. Cheri suggests that some of the moves can be done daily, even on the days when you do no workout — I might start incorporating those. Otherwise, when I have off days (like my long break at the beginning of March), I feel awful.

My gut tells me that I need to be doing more cardio, and that my body is treating T-Tapp like a weight-training workout. Could this be true? Not sure.

Water
I do fairly well with this one (usually close to 3/4oz per pound of body weight), but perhaps have slacked recently. I’ll start counting glasses again to see what happens.

Possible Disease State
See info on dairy, above. If I’ve triggered a latent dairy allergy, could it cause me to puff this much?

Dairy, I hardly knew ye.

Today begins a two-week hiatus from dairy of any kind, not just milk.

That means no cheese.

That means the Trader Joe’s yellow curry that kicks ass and makes a fab mean in 30 minutes possible? Nope, can’t have that either.

I’m going to be a label-reading idiot for a couple weeks (it would seem that EVERYTHING has casein in it), but if it helps me stop itching, it’s worth it. And maybe, in the end, I’ll find that cheese and butter are okay, even if I have to give up everything else. A girl can dream, right?